I know that It's November.. and many of you are taking the initiative to write what you're thankful for each day... but I thought that it was easier for me to write a blog..
I normally don't make personal mentions in my blogs, I figure that if it's about you.. or offends you.. you're well aware that the content of the blog was about you anyway.. so I don't really need to blast anyone. However.. I do feel it necessary to make everyone aware of the things in my life that I am so insanely appreciative for.
First and foremost God. I'm not religious.. and I've always believed that it's better to be a good person than a hypocritical Chrisitian.. but there are things in my life that without going into detail, can only be attributed to God. Having faith in that, on whatever level has given my life (especially recently) the direction that it needs. And I am so insanely grateful for that.
Second... My baby. He without any doubt in my mind saved my life. He brought joy back into it. He gives me a new reason every day to laugh.. to love... to be happy. Almost exactly 1 year after being in a hospital where I was told my body was starting to kill itself and I needed my family with me because It was failing rapidly.. I gave birth to the most incredible little guy in the whole world... just down the hallway. I promise you.. there aren't words... and I will never have the words to describe the feeling of hearing him cry for the very first time.. knowing that I was holding the entire world in my arms, after almost losing it all.
He, at 4 years old is everything that I wish I could be. He has the most incredible heart. He loves everything.. and everyone. There's been so many times when it was all falling apart, that he held it together for me. Without even knowing it. He is the love of my life and my greatest accomplishment. And I am so insanely blessed that for whatever reason, God put him in my life and gave me the opportunity to be his momma. There is so greater blessing in this world than that.
Next, is my parents. I have the most incredible parents in the world. I'm lucky. They don't always agree with me.. they think I'm crazy and dramatic and too strong headed I'm sure.. but through it all they've loved me. I've given them heart ache... kept them up at night with my bad decisions.. worried them.. and still they're always here. No matter what.
My parents have been married this year for 40 years. 40!!! And the most incredible thing about them is how after even 40 years they are still completely and madly in love. They'd be lost without each other. That has been one of the greatest examples in my life.
I was talking to my dad one day after having some break up or bad date or lord knows what... and I was asking him about my mom. (I know I've referenced this before so bare with me) I asked him how he knew it was her. How he knew he was supposed to be with her. And of course, my dad being my dad... gave me some long drawn out story about Hawaii and his days there, and the girls he was dating.. the girls back home.. and then he stopped and said "but your mom....." and he started to cry. Tears filled up his eyes, and ran down his face.. and he said "there was no comparison."
They have held this family together. They have taken on the stress and pain and financial burden and on and on... and I could not be anymore grateful for that.. which leads me to the next thing I'm grateful for.
My sisters. Staci, Lisa, Shannon and Sessie. I promise I could ramble on and on about them. They don't know how much I love them. I know that they don't. I try to tell them.. and show them. I fail miserably., and I'm sorry.. but please know that I love you with everything.
Staci: I'm so grateful for the roll that you and your family has played in my son's life. I would not be able to do this without you. Thank you for all the love you show my little guy. Thank you for helping me raise him. For teaching about all the things I know nothing about. People always say that it takes a Village to raise a child. This could not be anymore true than it is in my life. I simply couldn't do it without you. All the sleepovers, helping me run him around... all of it. I could go on and on. Thank you so much. I love you so much. I appreciate you, so much.
Lisa: You are without a doubt one of the most loving and accepting people I know. I have never once heard you make a judgmental comment.. or be anything but warm and welcoming to every single person. I know you didn't always have the easiest life.. and I often wonder how you can be so incredible with some of the trials you went through just to be yourself.. and you are. You're incredible. I know that I could always run to you. I'm sorry if I don't tell you enough how much I love you.. because you have no idea. You have no idea the way I look up to you. The way I wish I could be like you. Thank you for being such an amazing example of the kind heart I need.
Shannon: I am so grateful for the last few years with you. I feel like we're so a like. I'm so grateful that I've finally got to know you the way I should have always known you. I'm grateful for your friendship. I'm grateful for all the time I've had to spend with you. I feel like we're making up for lost years. I didn't know much about you because you left for the Marines when I was so young but the last few years have meant the world to me. Thank you for always being here for me. Thank you for letting me run to your house when I need to get away.. for everything.
Sessie: It's amazing to think that after spending years and years growing up fighting and trying to kill each other that you'd end up meaning everything to me. You're just my Sessie. You make me laugh.. and the most retarded and ridiculous things. You make me think I'm funny even though I'm not. I don't even know what to say except that I don't know what I'd do without you. I'd probably tell you I love you more but we just laugh like idiots when I talk to you... but if I don't say it enough, I love you more than anything and am so grateful for you.
To all of my amazing nieces: I love you, from the very bottom of my heart. I think you are the most incredible little girls. I am so, so incredibly proud to be your auntie. Please know that I am always here for you. Always. No matter. Your family loves you.... so much. I love you with everything!!
To the rest of my family... It's not that I don't have a million things that I need to say, or that I want to say.. just know how incredibly grateful I am for all of you. I could make this blog go on and on and on with reasons why you all mean so much to me. Please just know that I do. That I think about you all often, and love you all so much. If there's anything that I'm truly grateful for and inspired by, it's my family. I feel like the luckiest girl to have a family that means this much... I love you all!!!!!!!!!
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