Much Love

First of all.. let me just say... that if you don't like what I have to say... STOP reading my blog. Stop checking up on my facebook... stop asking about me. It's sort of weird how my name is always on your lips.

Doesn't it get tiring?? Caring so much about what I'm doing? Trying so hard to knock me down all the time??

What is it? What is it about me that you can't let go of? What is it about me that's just so damn hard to believe? I am not that interesting. Promise.

I don't think I could ever actually live up to the lies you tell about me.. and the rumors you work up.

On a less exhausting note... today was kind of a rough day. I felt sick, run down, overwhelmed... and fortunate for me, I cannot get rid of these damn hives!!!! They are sort of ruining my life right now lol. I thought maybe I was having an allergic reaction to my dog, but the more I get them the more I just think that maybe it's from stress.

Whatever. I got to spend tonight with my family, and then with some amazing girlfriends I haven't seen in a long time. I missed them. I needed a girls night out. I needed to talk about girl stuff.... about life, and crazy love, and men... dresses... shoes lol. I have to admit that I have some of the most amazing girlfriends in the entire world. I'm lucky that way.

Actually I feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world. I just feel like everything is (almost) how it should be. It's crazy how a couple of weeks can make such a difference but I guess that when you find yourself again... it's sort of hard not to feel fortunate.

It's hard to express... but I just feel so grateful and so blessed. I feel like life has been patiently waiting for me... for so, so long, and I finally figured it out.

My friend told me tonight that she could see the change in me. That even through things that I say she can see the difference.. that she can see that I'm so much happier. Honestly... that meant the world to me. Actually... it just means the world to me that you're my friend. I have some incredible people in my life, that have stuck with me through a lot of pain. I could never begin to tell you what that means to me.

Just thank you. Thank you for not giving up on me when a lot of people did.

This week is going to be CRAZY. I have my BIG birthday party on Saturday, and I cannot wait!!! There is still SO much to do still but I figure that with some absolutely amazing friends... some cake.. a little dancing.. well I just don't know that you can go wrong.

I STILL haven't picked a dress...

My shoes are in the mail...... (I hope)..

I need my hair done.. a manicure.. a pedicure...

probably some Xanax lol

I hope everyone has the most amazing week ever. I can't wait to see you all Saturday!!!!

Just a thought... you can spend all the time in the world being in the wrong place.. but life is so short. At the end of the day, it's the amazing people in your world that make it all worth while. It's the little moments... the tiny things that we rush over, that in the end mean the most. Those things you can't get back... so don't let them pass you by. Embrace it today because tomorrow the opportunity could be gone.

Much Love -