The first step to ME again

It's hard to feel confident when you don't feel like yourself.. at all. Even remotely.

I look at myself.. and I just don't see myself. I don't see me. I don't even feel like I look like myself right now. I get on the scale.. it frowns.. and I frown. My energy is completely gone, and I don't sleep so it feels like it's this never ending cycle of playing catch up.

Because of the problems with my back and legs I have felt discouraged.. unmotivated.. and simply blah.

Today I fell asleep on the couch with my baby and I honestly felt like I could have laid there with him for 6 days and slept.

As much as this gluten thing sucks... I can say that it's nice to finally feel like I have some sort of an answer. Some direction. Some hope.

For the first time today, even though I'm still pretty unsure about this whole thing I feel like it might finally be OK.

Yes I have to learn how to eat again.. I have to read labels (lord knows I have the kind of patience that that requires) I have to learn to cook differently.. but it's nice to know that there might actually be things that I can eat that aren't going to just make me sick and miserable.

Thanks everyone for the love and support. Seems so silly that I need love and support through a diet/lifestyle change but I absolutely HATE change and this is a big one for me... you all are just amazing.

The things I'm hoping to gain... the stomach pains gone.. finally my regular weight back.. and the itching to stop. I go in tomorrow for another allergy test... so hopefully one way or another that will finally quit.

Thank you Robby for the books, Telly for all the advice.. I'm sure that I'll be asking you a lot more, Kevin and Wendi and everyone else for the support. Much love