I don't know what to name it.. so it shall stay nameless

I haven't written anything in a few days because.. well my last blog went over like a damn...

epidemic.

Apparently not only should I not write when I'm overly emotional.... but I guess I should make it very clear what I'm talking about because I hurt the feelings of the last person in the world I ever wanted to... and the feelings of a few other people I never intended to take it personally.

So... to clear things up, I've deleted that and will be choosing my words from now on very wisely.

Life has funny timing. I know I've said it before but it seems like when I think it can't get anymore ironic, it does. And it seems to do so with vengeance.

For no particular reason (lord knows I won't share details anymore) I walked into Paradise bakery in the pursuit of finding something completely and utterly unhealthy for me.

I walked up to the counter, working desperately to keep the tears from running down my face and asked the poor unsuspecting girl if they made any of their cookies gluten free..

Paradise girl: "What's gluten?"

Me: "So I'm going to assume that's a no"

Paradise girl screams to the other paradise girl: "This lady doesn't want to eat gluten. Do YOU know what that is?!?"

Mortified that most everyone in the bakery is now looking at me....

Me: "It's ok really..... "

2nd paradise girl: "What can I help you with sweetie?"

** Side Note **I hate it when anyone calls me "sweetie".. "hun".. "babe".. when I don't actually know them. I am not your "sweetie".. I'm about to fall apart in the middle of your bakery. That's going to be a hot mess... I just want a cookie!!

Me: "I was just wondering if you made any of your cookies gluten free?"

2nd Paradise girl: "No Hun.. I'm sorry. We don't."

Me: "Ok I'll just take one of those. (Pointing at the sugar cookie with m&m's)

2nd Paradise girl: "Yeah see we don't make any of these gluten free.. not even that one."

**Side note ** I am literally going to Ninja my A** over this counter and kick yours for a gluten FULL cookie!!!

Me: "Ok "Sweetie" but can I have one of those??" (Pointing at the sugar cookie with m&m's)

2nd Paradise girl: "You do get that that has gluten, right??"

Me: "Yeah so if I could just get one of those that would be great."

2nd Paradise girl: "But that's not gluten free."

Me: "Ok so then I'll just take one... "

2nd Paradise girl literally picked that cookie up like she was about to hand me anthrax.

So........ I said "And I'll take one of those, and one of those, too.................. Thanks!"

I made it all the way to the car before completely falling apart.

The good news is, the cookies were delicious. The bad news is I haven't had hives or a stomach ache like this in weeks. My pride would have to get in the way of being responsible and say... not eating 3 cookies I knew I would completely pay for. Whatever. I had a point to prove. She wasn't going to tell me what not to eat..... Paradise cookies: 1 Me.... Well they were yummy so whatever.

Anyway... things I've learned today: Life can be a crazy ride. I hope that somewhere in all of this I'm becoming stronger and better for it. I hope. I hope I've grown up a little bit.. I hope I've become a better person. I hope that all the pain, tears... even all the smiles are all for something. I want to believe they are.

Much Love